I’ve always been self-conscious about my body.
I can’t remember a time where I wasn’t gravely sick when I was younger. I was allergic to almost everything, the pH levels in my body were out of sorts and breaking out in hives every day. Doctors had put me on so much cortizone (among many other meds) that I had eventually gained a great deal of weight.
Being young and being chubby are two things that don’t do serve you in school. I was constantly bullied by peoples and teachers about my weight for years. I’m not going to get too into it (I’ll save more of my backstory for PART 2) but all that trauma and hardship I faced led me to where I am today.
Being so self conscious can be mentally exhausting. You’re constantly trying to hide imperfections with baggy clothing, you avoid physical contact, 90% of the time you’re worried about what everyone else is thinking about you etcetera.
I’ve begun to work on myself from the inside out. Lockdown has taught me many lessons but one good lesson in particular stands out, and that lesson is discipline.
I’ve always tremendous difficulty commiting to a goal especially when it comes to fitness. Lockdown had/has afforded me the opportunity to truly focus on what I want (in terms fitness) and the body I intend on building.
I’ve been working out for nearly 9 weeks in total now. 6 weeks at home, mainly calisthenics training and 3 weeks at a local gym. I’m really happy to notice the subtle differences in which my body has changed but most importantly I’m learning to love myself again.
I can’t wait to share more with you next week. STAY TUNED for Part 2